Yesterday Carol went to Kmart to buy some baby aspirin and other sundries. The first thing she saw was a Seahawk display. Right in front were some frog bobbleheads dressed like Seahawks. The FIRST thing she thought was how cute they were and Sheena would LOVE those……….. Then the reality hit AGAIN. She didn’t sleep well last night.
We have been tracking a few DUI bills that aren’t going anywhere because of money and stupid petty politics. It is frustrating , maddening, disheartening and discouraging. I made a bunch of calls this morning because carol was PISSED. We were so optimistic last year when everyone worked together so well and they passed a BIG DUI bill. THIS year…….not so much. So there’s THAT.
We were asked to go out with the cops this Saturday night to visit bars and tell them to be more careful about sending drunken customers out into the night. I can’t TELL ya how many “Sheenas” we see in these bars. Carol is angry with the bar owners who listen, look sympathetic and then continue to send these potential killers out on our roads. She is angry at the Liquor Control Board because they don’t have a means of holding these bars accountable who continue to send dozens of drunk drivers out onto OUR roads year after year. She doesn’t trust herself to “keep her mouth shut” so she doesn’t want to go out this time. So I’ll go alone with the cops and the LCB agents.
We are fast approaching the four year mark since we lost Sheena and Tony. It’s NOT getting easier. We don’t miss her less, we don’t mourn her less, we don’t cry less and we still feel the empty hole in our hearts. We have the support and love of friends, family, strangers and communities. We would give it all back for one more hug.
So we are rapidly approaching another dark date. Monday we will drive up to Everett to see the memorial wall and the place where all this happened. We hope to visit those who helped keep us informed and guide us through the process. They supported us in ways that were SO above and beyond it’s hard to describe. There have been many positive relationships and amazing things that have heartened us and strengthened us. But the fact remains why we do all this stuff. Carol’s not doing well with all of this right now.It’s probably the damn frogs.